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How often do you think about dying?
How many times has the thought crossed your mind? Is it normal for a human being to think about death and is it negative all the time? I thought about this the past couple of days and especially today where my entire being smells like death. I’ve been looking around for any sign of a grim reaper because today, I am so ready to die.
Instead of blabbering on about my condition and how it ruined my mood of a somewhat nice day yesterday before the dizziness and headaches came on and led to vertigo at night, I would like to talk about death. Factually. (Though I was tempted to take my life again today I decided to research about why people think about death especially in sickness or loneliness)
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Now, death is a factual event that we eventually have to face but sometimes and most often we experience death even before we actually die, physically. Emotional death. Mental death. Spiritual death.
“When we imagine our emotions as we approach death, we think mostly of sadness and terror,” says psychological scientist Kurt Gray of the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill. “But it turns out, dying is less sad and terrifying – and happier – than you think”
Yes indeed, death is a marvellous prospect. It is a dream come true. Away from this damaged world with deranged and destructive beings. What’s wrong with thinking about death? What’s wrong with wanting to die? Especially when you get sick and your loved ones leave you. Or you still feel empty and lonely inside even if they stay . Why must we stay strong and fight on? Why must we stay positive and be the better person and listen to people stating: “Death is just an easier option” and that it’s only for cowards?
“It’s only when I’m awake that I think about dying” – All The Bright Places, Jennifer Niven
When people are left lonely, sad and without love people can die of broken-heartedness. And a broken heart can happen from all sorts of situations, we are in no position to judge a person’s threshold of being hurt. I mentioned in my previous post about how a person can get sick from being depressed. A person can also die from a broken heart.
“Every year millions of lonely people… die broken-hearted, long before their time. It’s a silent epidemic,” – A Cry Unheard, Dr. James Lynch
“Samuels collects stories of previously healthy people who have suddenly died of a heart attack from massive overdoses of stress chemicals that are often dumped into the blood stream after a stressful event” – Dr. Martin Samuels, head of Neuro-cardiology department at Brigham and Women’s Hospital in Boston, Massachusetts.
So what do we do? What can we do when everything and nothing seems to work out in our life. Something always goes wrong in everything that we do. We wish for death don’t we? Well at least many of us do because it’s that much easier. Then why does God call life a ‘gift‘? How can it possibly be a gift when it relentlessly slams us down to the ground again and again and AGAIN like the villains in superhero stories that never seem to be able to just GO AWAY.
“How long O Lord, will you forget me?
How long will you hide your face?
How long must I bear grief in my soul,
this sorrow in my heart day and night?…”
Now let’s see what Jesus says:
“When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” – John 8:12
Hmmm, then why do we have so many people walking and living in darkness even if they are a believer? Does this mean that a believer should not be depressed? That depression should not exist because you believe in God? I knew a friend who once had another friend tell her, “If you love God and pray enough you should not be depressed. You will never have depression. So maybe your faith isn’t strong enough or you just don’t love God enough”. Well how do you think I reacted to that? (in my head of course). I punched her in the face. (not sorry) How can people be so insensitive? And yet it made me think. It does kind of make sense right? Like the bible verse above. Why would we still be shrouded in darkness if we are following Jesus even with faith the size of a mustard seed? He is bright enough to shine out the darkness in our hearts and minds so, why?
“The one who believes in me will live, even though they die..“
“and whoever lives by believing in me will never die.”
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Be kind to one another,xo, Faith
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